Failure Makes Perfect
How many times I have failed, it is impossible to recount. If someone were to keep a score of who is successful based on achievement, I would probably fall in the last place. However, I feel like someone who has accomplished vast success, through trial and error. I was brought up to think that giving up is not an option, so every time that I feel the world falling and me going into an abyss, I try to recount those times in which life gave me the opportunity to try again.
I have failed as a parent, as a person, as a business person, and yet, I am not giving up, the end of our lives happens when we give up. I am thinking of people who have suffered great losses, and I account myself here, because I have lost a lot based on the decisions I have made as an adult. Leaving my education to raise my children, marrying young and divorcing young, leaving many jobs in which I felt I was obsolete, wasting time and money on people who cared not about me but on using me. However, I see beauty in everything that I have done because everything that I have done I have done with a full heart and with love.
My greatest accomplishment is becoming a mother to two beautiful boys who have made me proud over the years. I could never put into words what having a child is, it is a footprint in the planet that lasts eternally and yes, parenthood changes everything that you have ever thought you believed in.
The problems that I have faced in my life are minimal compared to the problems of the world, and failure is something that has taught me to try again. I have felt alone, I have felt sad and lonely so many times, with and without company, I have felt everything that the heart, the mind and the body can feel, and yet, I still feel alive, in this world full of so many things that I cannot explain.
There are times in our lives when we feel so desperate for an answer or a sign, and yet that is sometimes not something that we can find. Sometimes, there is no answer to our call for help for a demonstration of love or kindness. The strength that I find when fighting for my life, when fighting for my rights is that of self strength, of people who have taught me and shown me how to try again and again, without giving up.
The world says that we cannot do things, that we are incapable, that are unworthy unless we have a display and an array of valuables, but Audrey Hepburn said the opposite in a very beautiful way: “the word impossible says in itself, I am possible.” And so, every time that I find myself wondering what my next step will be and why I should try, I think of the silliness of our problems. How much we worry about things that do not necessarily matter, they only matter to others, and that, in itself, is a reminder of why we must continue to forget the past, to forgive and to move on.
To end, I believe in none other than hard work. The result of our lives is that of our work and our actions. We cannot expect success if we do not put in anything in between situations, conflict, solutions and all that life brings. Life is hard, that is for sure, sometimes life is dark and scary, but it does not end, life continues whether we exist or not. Life is only valuable as much as we give it value.